Self-pity is simply the grief that I have nothing to brag about in myself.
Ever have those days when you feel like a failure at everything? The closer I walk with God, the more my sin, my deep-rooted self-love, comes into high-definition focus. And honestly, I’d really love to be the most put together person in the room, the most spiritual, the most holy, the most fill-in-the-blank woman I know. Why? [Honest confession time] Because I love boasting in myself!
And if we are all honest, who doesn’t? Who doesn’t love feeling like they are awesome? Like they are the bomb-dot-com, as Jimmy would say.
So today, while feeling sorry for my sin-sick self, I am reminded that those “woe-is-me” thoughts are anything but godly. They might seem spiritual and masquerade like noble desires to “be better” for God, but I am only mourning the loss of my own greatness. I am still, in my pride, just focused on myself.
But here is the occasion for the mental guerrilla warfare described in 2 Corinthians 10:3-6. By taking captive my thoughts, this grieving of my own destroyed goodness might lead me to a proper boasting.
THE RIGHT KIND OF BOASTING
1 Corinthians 1 is the best cure I know for a low self-esteem. Read it with me here, and if you dare, read it out loud to let it settle on you:
For consider your calling, brethren, that there were not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble; but God has chosen the foolish things of the world to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong, and the base things of the world and the despised God has chosen, the things that are not, so that He may nullify the things that are, so that no man may boast before God. But by His doing you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, and righteousness and sanctification, and redemption, so that, just as it is written, “Let Him who boasts, boast in the Lord.” – 1 Corinthians 1:26-31
The truth is, the Bible actually encourages a low self-esteem. Did you catch what we were just commanded to do in this passage? We are to consider, meditate, think on the fact that we are: